This first week has been one that is full of emotion. Entering the classroom for the second time is totally different. I have confidence in my teaching but the reality of the every day lives my students live really hit me hard.  I am very grateful for my support system (My family and friends) for helping me through the adjustment. It’s amazing how I am able to function off very little sleep…this = more coffee. If you know me at all you have probably come to realize that I have a lot going on in that brain of mine and it is so hard for me to turn it off at night. This often results in exhaustion. I give my kids 110% of my energy throughout the day and when that last bell rings I am BEAT! When people ask me if I like my job my response is that I LOVE my students but I’m super frustrated with the school system. I tell my students I love them, I give them hugs and I try to show them love through my teaching. This doesn’t mean that some days I want to literally sprint out of the building and never come back. I continue to stay because I know that these kids need me.

It’s funny to me how each class period I teach is so different. They each have their own personality. Some classes are so quiet right now that they just stare at me with these blank faces. I've gotten use to having multiple sets of eyeballs on me I just wish we could speed through the whole get to know you phase where the kids can't decide if I'm cool or not. I tell them I'm cool and down with it but I guess they just have to figure it our on their own. Other classes have such strong personalities and I just thrive off the energy. They obviously have figured out how cool I am and take advantage of my unique and nontraditional  teaching skills.

This year I'm taking on a new approach to interacting with the students. I have decided to be extremely real with them, which means I have to be slightly vulnerable. This is hard for me because I get really attached to my students and I only have them for such a short period of time...9-18 weeks if I’m lucky. So, I put together a powerpoint to introduce myself to the students. I want them to see me as a not only a teacher but a person. I remember when I was little I use to think that my teachers actually slept at school. During my first year I would stay after school so late that security would come down to the basement to check on me. This year my planning has gotten so much better so hopefully I’m not going to have to stay so late and lets be real I'm trying to make it to the 5:30 Crossfit Class. The powerpoint included information and pictures about the things I really care about. They were able to see my family and the activities that I enjoy doing outside of school. They were shocked that I actually had pictures of me with friends!

Many people don't realize the hours of work that teachers put in once the school day is over or before it even starts. I have always been a person who finds joy in the details so it is the small touches to things that I create for my students that I think make my classroom a warm place to be. Teaching, like life or any relationship, is a process and my students and I will continue to work to grow together and now that I have over 154 new faces and names to learn I get excited about the possibility of being a positive influence in their lives...even if it is only for one hour each day. I have on my desk a verse that keeps me grounded. 1 Corinthians 15:58 "Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."

So many of my students are parents themselves and it is so strange to see students I had last year who came to tell me that they were pregnant and show up to school after this summer with swollen bellies. I see them coming down the hall and they smile at me and I see a young girl with braces who has this belly with a child growing inside and my heart hurts because I know this is a kid about to have a kid. I see that girls like Amber put on this really strong front yet deep down there is this sense of terror and they tell me. "Ms. I'm just not ready." I tell you this because it is the reality that I work in daily. What makes me proud is that Amber is still coming to school and she tells me that she wants to be better so she can provide for her baby. These kids constantly amaze me with a "fighter" mentality.

This week I really focused on investing my students into owning their education. We talked about Malleable Intelligence and that that their brain is a muscle just waiting to grow. This means that they CAN become more intelligent. Their brains can grow and change because it is full of billions of neurons waiting to learn new information and make stronger connections. We discussed the concept of Democracy and why that is important in their lives. We ended the week talking about how in order for them to be successful they have to set goals for themselves. We ended the week on a good note. I currently have 154 students and 154 Big Goals on my bulletin board.

On a funny note, the kids seem to be really concerned with my dating life. They are always asking if I am dating any of the other teachers and why I don't have kids yet. I tell them that they are my number one priority and that I'm just not ready to have my own kids. In reality once school starts my social life ends. This is something that I am working on trying to balance out in my life. In order to be healthy for my students I need to continue to take care of myself and that means getting enough sleep, being active and being social. 

Here are some pictures of the students working. One of my new favorites "Big Trey" :)